paper.

my heart is like a piece of paper.
it was lovely and all put together.
one day you found a note on the ground.
inside a new loved heart was found.
you cared for it an took it home.
now with you its not alone.
till one night you stuffed it away.
crumbled up yet still here to stay.
forgotten and lost it didn't know what to do.
no thoughts on how to stop loving you.
a new night the stars were lit.
and you came back to where you left it.
patched with love and a kiss of forgiving.
the heart just scratched yet went on living.
everything fine no where near wrong.
putting the "love" in a love song.
till you left forgetting the heart behind.
hurt once more the heart not so kind.
remembering the words "forever and ever".
the heart now raged with "forget it and never!"
tears filled the heart each and every day.
your love not coming back, why did you run away?
soon enough forgetting what we had.
the heart not lost nor was it sad.
almost moved on, one final tear left.
putting thought and memories of love to their rest.
in the dark holding hands as we lay.
no song to sing no words shall we say.
sick of your eyes too much pain to recall.
your hand under my head you said "i wont let you fall".
back up i looked confused once more.
"I'm sorry" the heart heard "i love you for sure".
the heart lost on what to reply.
"don't forget what he did that fool made you cry!"
too in love and forgiving my heart seems to be.
but look what I've gotten. someone who loves me.

please watch over what i've left with you.
guard it with your life.
because the second you forget its there
it might just disappear
i couldn't have given you anymore of my trust
i gave almost everything i had.
please watch over what i've left with you.
guard it with your life.
say you wont ever let it go
you need it more then you could ever know.
trust is always temporary
but love is forever
please watch over what i've left with you.
guard it with your life.
open your eyes and you will see
you may not know what you could find
love, you're always on my mind.
tell me you love me.
please watch over what ive left with you.
guard it with your life.
its all of me, now part of you.
my heart is what you have.

let's go for a ride.

the thoughts of when you said
"i feel like we need to end
because one day the butterflies will just stop"
...it still hurts.
only because i'll never know if they will for you.
you told me "its like a new car smell.
its really nice at first but one day its just gone."
is that what you see us as?
i just need to know if you want love
or an accessory.
everything felt so real.
but recently i feel like you want me recycled.
was it too many broken windows?
am i just not as reliable anymore?
do you feel like because everyone is getting theirs replaced
you have to do the same?
well as soon as you hop in that new car
take a look in your rearview mirror.
ill be there broken down with a broken heart.

falling up?

My life is going so far down hill
its getting too steep to climb back up.
My life isn't even a road anymore.
It's more of a cliff
and one more inch might just put me over the edge.
It's not fair that i get treated like this.
I don't like how my friends wont even listen.
If the only few people you can trust in your life go missing
when what do you do?
you stop trusting.

I've hit the end of my road
now all thats left is to fall.

where do we stand?

what do i have to do to get stuck in your head?
what do i have to do to get some feeling from you?
you used to be so loving, what happened?
you used to talk to me with your heart not your dumb boy head!
i try to get through to you, but it doesn't work!
i feel like you like messing with me.
where's the guy that gave me butterflies?
what's going on with you?
your so confusing!
and i hate were we stand right now!
maybe if all relationships feel like this after a while
then i should just stand on my own. so that way i don't get a broken heart every time i open my mouth. or better yet when you open yours.
where are those long conversations on the phone we had?
what happened to those few random moments when you thought about me.
i just miss knowing you cared.
you never invite me to be with you.
you never send me a little message saying how you feel.
no romance. no nothing.
everything i give you to i would like in return.
like love...
that all i want. a simple reminder ever once in a while letting me know you love me.
i just want a smile on my face.
You said the butterflies wont last forever. i didn't think you meant you hope they don't last forever.
but the worst part of all this is if i try and tell you any of this...
it wont change a thing.
you wont even consider that your doing something wrong.
because if i complain then it must be something wrong with me.
please just tell me what goes on in your head.
where do i stand in your heart?
when do i move in your mind?
let me know.
because for right now...
your the only thing moving around in my head.
i know where you stand in my heart.
one on one. where do we stand?

two years came with out me?

i miss it when you would tell me everything you loved about me!
i miss you holding my hand and actually wanting to.
i miss you being there for me.
i miss the time we had together.
i miss who i was.
and i also miss who you were.
where did you go?
and why did you leave without me?

luck of the draw.

its the same luck of the draw
to get 4 A's in a row
as it is to find the right person for you
the first pick.
if you are lucky enough to pick the cards
that can spell "love".
well you might just have a winning chance
in this game we call "life"
now stop counting ex's
and start counting cards
because you just lost the luck of the draw.

meaningless words.

i usually take complements pretty well.
but i hate it when you give a complement to someone
and it come from deep down in your heart
then all they can say is "you too"
its sad cause i know i should be happy
but for some reason i would just like something a little more...
i don't know meaningful.

(roll eyes)

im sick of being lied to!
you know you dont have to lie
just keep your mouth shut!
if you dont want it out.
to bring it up.
i feel like you think im stupid!
i know what really happened
just be real with me!
and if your scared that your going to "lose" me
well you should have thought about that before you opened your mouth!
at least if you tell me the truth then ill respect you
and maybe we can get our friendship back on track
but if you lied once
...what else could you have lied about
too bad not one person i know will tell the 100% truth like i'd like them to.
not even myself.
i guess by changing the world first i should start with changing myself.

dear world,
please just act like the person your talking about, good or bad, is watching you. who knows they very well could be. and who your talking about that person with may very well not be as reliable with your secrets as they allow you to believe. no one knows what happens behind closed doors.

just words... right?

how do you drive me crazy
but i have no effect on you?
i die to try and find you
but you're fine with running away?
why do you find everything wrong with me
but i can look past every flaw of yours?
i don't understand
but i sure want to!
will you please tell me
how to get through to you?
all i want is to be a tick in your head
like you are in mine
but i need a little help
on finding a way in there.
you make my heart crazy!
you say i do the same to yours
but how is it i don't see it?
i cant feel it?
i cant even fine it!
tell me what it is you want to hear
i cant make those words come out of my mouth
they might not be true
but since when was your love?

breath, step back, now RUN!

why is it that no matter what you do to me
i wont throw a punch back
but you have no problem with messing up my life!!!
i can find the love to let things go
but you cant seem to find the time to!
you know what
if this is how things are going to be
then im over it!
you can call this friendship off
say we're over
i dont care anymore
and the one final thing ill say to you is
i hope you hurt!

from the song you first sang to me
to the one that played when we kissed.
from the beat we stepped to when we first held hands
to the one your heart played while i fell asleep.
since music makes up our lives
what song is going to play next?
I've heard songs that make me cry
I've played tunes that make me smile
what beat will you be?
I like music videos that keep me at the end of my seat
but i don't want my life to be one.

hit.

why is it when it comes to you
ill say or do anything to stand up for you?
why do i get so mad when everyone thinks all guys are the same
but i know that your different?
i love you. and even though im trying not to right now
i cant help but defend you.
if only you could see the why i stick up for you
if only you knew the way i love you
and it breaks my heart to know
i stick up for you
but you cant say you do the same for me.

the close minded closed the book.

love is only a chapter in your life
but to me its the whole book.
the book mark keeps your place.
its always there when you get back.
but lifes not a book.
you cant save the page in a relationship.
i tried to turn the story in my direction
but your closed the book before we even got to that chapter
you thought the story was headed one way
but it was going another
just listen to the story
its yours but you cant make up all of it.
like life somethings are out of your hands
so you can try to book mark love
but the page will always get lost.

love was our weapon

that song played while the both of us had our first kiss.
that song played when when i needed a smile or a friend.
that song makes my day when i hear it.
put my ipod on random and ill skip every song till i get to ours.
that song plays in the car when I'm thinking of you.
or when I'm home thinking with you!
either way that song will play!
here i sit broken and that song is still as cheerful
as the night that we first held hands
so if I'm smiling why aren't you?

here.

to see you like that
it breaks my heart
i wish i could be there
like you've been from the start

to see you cry
to see you so low
i guess love's just a game
of easy come and easy go

im sorry you feel like this
and i know it hurts right now
if only i could let you know some how

your going to be fine
your going to be alright
with sisters like us to help through the fight
you'll come up strong
and better understanding
that life is long
and so overbearing

i care i do
i'll never completely understand
just tell me you need me
and there i will stand

Please don't walk away
I cant stand to be alone.
I need to hear you voice
and not only on the phone.

A sea between us
or it may as well be.
miles away
can you live without me?

Why do you go?
You always walk away.
Don't leave me alone.
I need you here to stay!

Your a part of my life,
my world, my best friend.
What happen to those words
"I'll be here till the end"?

Everyday I walk
your my tune and my song.
You're my words of encouragement.
You push me along.

You say I don't matter,
its only for you.
Since when am I not in your life?
Now what do I do?

Why are you everything to me
but I seem to mean nothing to you?
Since every thing's falling
I guess we're just through!

Now that we're over
I guess I'll move on.
Just know I'm still here sometime
I'm never all gone.

a mile long...

Is this love real because its right or be cause its right now?
Are you the guy of my dreams or just in my dreams?

in my past,
you are my present,
but do we have a future?

i know you make me laugh
and i know you make me smile
but this is a two way street
are we slowing down each mile?

how sad does your life have to be
when it seems like everything is going wrong.
every direction i look in, it seems like that angle of my space is fading.
i feel like with ever second i watch my life pass me by my friends decide that im not what's best for them.
When the only person you feel like you can trust doesn't trust you... well lets just say I'm doing something wrong but i don't know what.
am i crazy for wishing to have a life like a movie, to play the part of the star for once?
but people always tell me "maybe we weren't suppose to be the stars of this movie" so it seems like your just trying to keep the movie behind the sense.
can we just press play and move on. if we're not the stars then we don't have to keep acting like we are. We might not be the magic of your movie. but the one I'm watching... the one i dream about... the us i see, the you and me. they're the stars in front of this camera.