move forward.

sometImes life is a way to move you past hopes and dreams.
you might just find out nothings what it seems.
LOVE comes fast then dies slow.
and when its gone you wont know where to go.
after you move forward you might take a step back.
looking in another direction could set YOU off track.
life will continue to live even though your dreams die.
move with life and your new dreams might survive.

don't plan ahead.

i planned on our tomorrow
i planned the day we would get married
i planned every second we would have together
i planned on the change of wether and time
but i never had planned on you changing your mind.

now ill go sit on the floor wearing your clothes
all that i know is i don't know how to be something you miss.
i never thought we'd have a last kiss.

I'll get my revenge!

The story starts when it was hot and it was summer
And, I had it all; I had him right there where I wanted him
She came along, got him along, and let's hear the applause
She took him faster than you can say sabotage
I never saw it coming, nor did I suspected it
I underestimated just who I was dealing with
She had to know the pain was beating on me like a drum
She underestimated just who she was stealing from

She's not a saint and she's not what you think
She's an actress, Whoa
She's better known for the things that she does
on the mattress, Whoa
Soon she's gonna find
Stealing other people's toys on the playground
Won't make you many friends
She should keep in mind,
She should keep in mind
There is nothing I do better than revenge, Ha

She lives her life like it's a party and she's on the list
She looks at me like I'm a trend and she's so over it
I think her ever present frown is a little troubling
And, she thinks I'm psycho
cause I like to rhyme her name with things, but
Sophistication isn't what you wear, or who you know
or pushing people down to get you where you wanna go
Oh they didn't teach you that in prep school
So it's up to me
But no amount of vintage dresses gives you dignity

She's not a saint and she's not what you think
She's an actress, Whoa
She's better known for the things that she does
On the mattress, Whoa
Soon she's gonna find
Stealing other people's toys on the playground
Won't make you many friends
She should keep in mind,
She should keep in mind
There is nothing I do better than revenge, Ha ha

I'm just another thing for you to roll your eyes at honey
You might have him, but haven't you heard
I'm just another thing for you to roll your eyes at honey
You might have him, but I always get the last word
Whoa

She's not a saint and she's not what you think
She's an actress, Whoa
She's better known for the things that she does
on the mattress, Whoa
Soon she's gonna find
Stealing other people's toys on the playground
Won't make you many friends
She should keep in mind,
She should keep in mind
There is nothing I do better than revenge,

And do you still feel like you know what you're doing,
Cause I don't think you do, Oh
Do you still feel like you know what you're doing
I don't think you do, I don't think you do
Let's hear the applause
C'mon show me how much better you are
See you deserve some applause
Cause you're so much better
She took him faster than you can say sabotage.

I hate myself
I hate you
I want to end it all
but I know it would hurt you
if I hate you so much
then why do I still want you to be happy?

last christmas.

"Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Once bitten and twice shy
I keep my distance but you still catch my eye
Tell me, baby, do you recognize me?
Well, it's been a year, it doesn't surprise me

Merry Christmas, I wrapped it up and sent it
With a note saying, "I love you", I meant it
Now I know what a fool I've been
But if you kissed me now I know you'd fool me again

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

A crowded room and friends with tired eyes
I'm hiding from you and your soul of ice
My God, I thought you were someone to rely on
Me? I guess I was a shoulder to cry on

A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A girl undercover but you tore her apart
Maybe this year, maybe this year
I'll give it to someone special

'Cause last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

And last Christmas
And this year won't be anything like
Anything like

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
And this year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special"

These four walls
They whisper to me
They know a secret
I knew they would not keep
Didn't take long for the room to fill with trust
And these four walls came down around us

It must have been something that send me out of my head
With the words so radical
And not what I meant
Now I wait for a break in the silence 'cause it's all that you left
Just me and these four walls again

It's hard now to let you be
I won't make excuses
I've made my peace
Didn't take long for me to lose the trust
'Cause these four walls were not strong enough
ooooh
It must have been something that send me out of my head
With the words so radical
And not what I meant
Now I wait for a break in the silence 'cause it's all that you left
Just me and these four walls again

Yeah, it's difficult
Watching us fade
Knowing it's all my fault
My mistake
Yeah, it's difficult
Letting you down
Knowing it's all my fault
You're not around

It must have been something that send me out of my head
With the words so radical
And not what I meant
Now I wait for a break in the silence 'cause it's all that you left
Just me and these four walls again
Yeah
Ooh
These four walls again

Lamp:you've freed me. you may wish for anything but love.
Me: but love is all I wish for. You can keep the world and all it's riches. All I want is him back In my arms (thinking) I hope my words touched your heart. I guess all I can do is wait to see if you give me my only wish.
Clock: it's 11:11. You may wish for anything but love.
Me: but love is all I wish for. I wait for you to change hour the least you could do is give him a change of heart and take me back in his arms. (thinking) I hope my words touched your heart. I guess all I can do Is wait to see if you give me my only wish.
Shooting star: here I come an there I go don't blink and make a wish. You may wish for anything but love.
Me: but love is all I wish for. I wait all night to watch you fall the least you could do is have him fall for me.(thinking) I hope my words touched your heart.
I guess all I can do is wait to see if you give me my only wish.
Clover: you've made the right pick. You may wish for any...
Me: yeah yeah yeah... All I wish for is a flower so I can see if all my other wishes came true.

i loved you first.

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first, I loved you first
Beneath the sheets of paper lies my truth
I'll let you go, I have to go
Your hair was long when we first met

dustin went back to bed
Not much hair left on his head
tonight as i lay in bed
the thoughts of him fill my head.
And history books forgot about us
And the Bible didn't mention us
The Bible didn't mention us, not even once

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first , I loved you first
Beneath the stars came falling on our heads
But they're just old light
They're just old light
Your hair was long when we first met

dustin came to my bed
Told me that my hair was red
Told me I was beautiful
and thoughts of me filled his head
I cut his hair myself one night
A pair of dull scissors and the yellow light
He told me that I'd done all right
And kissed me until the morning light, the morning light
And he kissed me until the morning light

dustin went back to bed
Not much hair left on his head
thoughts of that boy fill my head
as we went to bed.
We couldn't break the columns down
No, we couldn't destroy a single one
And the history books forgot about us
And the Bible didn't mention us
Not even once

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first

so hard to let go.
i can still hear the sound of your voice in my head
almost nothing and yet we're still hanging by a thread
please just take a look in to my eyes one last time so we'll never forget
the way we felt on that day when we first met.
this is still worth fighting for!
a glass left half empty wont wash away the mistakes that i made.
its worth defending to make us better...
yet its gone on for to long and this is IT!
just take a look in to my eyes one last time
so we never forget the way we were,
IS THIS STILL WORTH FIGHTING FOR?!?!
its getting harder just to live.
ill give you all a girl can give.
just take a look in to my eyes one last time...
try to remember that night we kissed
now tell me is this still worth fighting for?

between you and me.

between you and me I'm missing you.
between me and you I keep all your thoughts.
between you and me I don't understand you.
between me and you I need your hugs.
between you and me there's so many things i need to say.
between me and you lives getting so hard.
between you and me I'm lost.
between me and you I'm in love.

dead love in a dead rose.

you don't love me anymore so why do i still act like you do?
if you cant say it to my face now when where and when will you?
I tired of crying over you!
I sick of being sick!
I just need a clear answer but thats something no one but you can give me!
and i know you wont.
... I'll let the rose pick your next move for you.
rose, what ever you tell me I'll make my heart listen just speak up
and don't give me the wrong answer.
"he loves me... he loves me not..."
46 yellow rose pelts fell
and i got an answer
... he loves me...
i don't know if I'm more upset because he wont show me
or because i wish the answer was the opposite.

hearts vs. heartless

hands and knees we come crawling
open eyes and closed hearts, no one wanted loving.
pleads and cares fill our heads
hoping your fine as they lay in their beds.
tears form night to night.
moving on they're alright.
we're so broken up inside.
your heart and love seem so blind.
do you see what miss? i know i do
i cant stand to be here without you!
hoping to feel your lips once more
eyes filled with tear as you slam throw the door.
if thats what you want ill act the same
if you don't want love i can play that game.
i can pretend i don't want to hold you when your around.
but you know if i looked in your eyes i'd break down.
i can say nothing was right
but you know we're fine.

but lets be real...
if i could for just one night
to be with you to make it right.
what we were and what we are
you know we don't have to act so far.
if i could just take you there
i wont let go to this i swear.
if i told you I'm doing fine without you, that'd be a lie
but i could try.
I'm lost in this darkness
the broken and heartless.
shine your light and ill reach for you
because you know there's nothing i wouldn't do.
i've been told so many times its not worth the struggle
loves nothing but trouble.

with love as my weapon...
but those words said so many times...
i keep running back to the front lines
ill never serenader
my heart would wait forever.
standing with my head up high
cant you see that its worth a try?
i crossed on this battlefield
though you still don't see me standing here
holding on I'm screaming out
ive lost this love do you hear me now?

driveway

"After 12, not so well
Won't pretend, it's too soon to tell
What's round this bend?
No disgrace, about face
Anything not to have to chase you down again
You know nothing hurts like loosing
When you know it's really gone
Except for the pain of choosing
To hold too long
I tried it your way
But I got nothing to show
It's been the same, same
And the story's getting old
So I guess the driveway
Will be the end of the road
For us it's too late
Let the credits start to roll
A lot to say
But not today
Let the radio break the silence
As we drive
A kiss goodbye
Not this time
Don't remember what about this song
I ever liked
You know nothing hurts like loosing
When you know I'm already gone
Except for the pain of choosing
To hold too long
I tried it your way
But I got nothing to show
It's been the same, same
And the story's getting old
So I guess the driveway
Will be the end of the road
For us it's too late
Let the credits start to roll
I thought maybe we were getting somewhere
But we're still nowhere at all
I watched your tail lights fading
I try but it still won't fall
I remember what it feels like to know love
And have it taken away
Can't think of what I've learned right now
But I'll be thanking you someday
I tried it your way
But I got nothing to show
It's been the same, same
And the story's getting old
So I guess the driveway
Will be the end of the road
For us it's too late
Let the credits start to roll
So I guess the driveway
Will be the end of the road,
End of the road ."

Don't EVER tell me you love me more AGAIN!

now its my move!

"I hope you stay up in the middle of the night
thinking if there's anything left of you and I
you try your hardest to try and cover it up
hoping that ill never see how much your staying up
in the middle of the night
thinking if there's anything left of you and I"

umm hello yeah your dating me!
or did you forget?!?

paper.

my heart is like a piece of paper.
it was lovely and all put together.
one day you found a note on the ground.
inside a new loved heart was found.
you cared for it an took it home.
now with you its not alone.
till one night you stuffed it away.
crumbled up yet still here to stay.
forgotten and lost it didn't know what to do.
no thoughts on how to stop loving you.
a new night the stars were lit.
and you came back to where you left it.
patched with love and a kiss of forgiving.
the heart just scratched yet went on living.
everything fine no where near wrong.
putting the "love" in a love song.
till you left forgetting the heart behind.
hurt once more the heart not so kind.
remembering the words "forever and ever".
the heart now raged with "forget it and never!"
tears filled the heart each and every day.
your love not coming back, why did you run away?
soon enough forgetting what we had.
the heart not lost nor was it sad.
almost moved on, one final tear left.
putting thought and memories of love to their rest.
in the dark holding hands as we lay.
no song to sing no words shall we say.
sick of your eyes too much pain to recall.
your hand under my head you said "i wont let you fall".
back up i looked confused once more.
"I'm sorry" the heart heard "i love you for sure".
the heart lost on what to reply.
"don't forget what he did that fool made you cry!"
too in love and forgiving my heart seems to be.
but look what I've gotten. someone who loves me.

please watch over what i've left with you.
guard it with your life.
because the second you forget its there
it might just disappear
i couldn't have given you anymore of my trust
i gave almost everything i had.
please watch over what i've left with you.
guard it with your life.
say you wont ever let it go
you need it more then you could ever know.
trust is always temporary
but love is forever
please watch over what i've left with you.
guard it with your life.
open your eyes and you will see
you may not know what you could find
love, you're always on my mind.
tell me you love me.
please watch over what ive left with you.
guard it with your life.
its all of me, now part of you.
my heart is what you have.

let's go for a ride.

the thoughts of when you said
"i feel like we need to end
because one day the butterflies will just stop"
...it still hurts.
only because i'll never know if they will for you.
you told me "its like a new car smell.
its really nice at first but one day its just gone."
is that what you see us as?
i just need to know if you want love
or an accessory.
everything felt so real.
but recently i feel like you want me recycled.
was it too many broken windows?
am i just not as reliable anymore?
do you feel like because everyone is getting theirs replaced
you have to do the same?
well as soon as you hop in that new car
take a look in your rearview mirror.
ill be there broken down with a broken heart.

falling up?

My life is going so far down hill
its getting too steep to climb back up.
My life isn't even a road anymore.
It's more of a cliff
and one more inch might just put me over the edge.
It's not fair that i get treated like this.
I don't like how my friends wont even listen.
If the only few people you can trust in your life go missing
when what do you do?
you stop trusting.

I've hit the end of my road
now all thats left is to fall.

where do we stand?

what do i have to do to get stuck in your head?
what do i have to do to get some feeling from you?
you used to be so loving, what happened?
you used to talk to me with your heart not your dumb boy head!
i try to get through to you, but it doesn't work!
i feel like you like messing with me.
where's the guy that gave me butterflies?
what's going on with you?
your so confusing!
and i hate were we stand right now!
maybe if all relationships feel like this after a while
then i should just stand on my own. so that way i don't get a broken heart every time i open my mouth. or better yet when you open yours.
where are those long conversations on the phone we had?
what happened to those few random moments when you thought about me.
i just miss knowing you cared.
you never invite me to be with you.
you never send me a little message saying how you feel.
no romance. no nothing.
everything i give you to i would like in return.
like love...
that all i want. a simple reminder ever once in a while letting me know you love me.
i just want a smile on my face.
You said the butterflies wont last forever. i didn't think you meant you hope they don't last forever.
but the worst part of all this is if i try and tell you any of this...
it wont change a thing.
you wont even consider that your doing something wrong.
because if i complain then it must be something wrong with me.
please just tell me what goes on in your head.
where do i stand in your heart?
when do i move in your mind?
let me know.
because for right now...
your the only thing moving around in my head.
i know where you stand in my heart.
one on one. where do we stand?

two years came with out me?

i miss it when you would tell me everything you loved about me!
i miss you holding my hand and actually wanting to.
i miss you being there for me.
i miss the time we had together.
i miss who i was.
and i also miss who you were.
where did you go?
and why did you leave without me?

luck of the draw.

its the same luck of the draw
to get 4 A's in a row
as it is to find the right person for you
the first pick.
if you are lucky enough to pick the cards
that can spell "love".
well you might just have a winning chance
in this game we call "life"
now stop counting ex's
and start counting cards
because you just lost the luck of the draw.

meaningless words.

i usually take complements pretty well.
but i hate it when you give a complement to someone
and it come from deep down in your heart
then all they can say is "you too"
its sad cause i know i should be happy
but for some reason i would just like something a little more...
i don't know meaningful.

(roll eyes)

im sick of being lied to!
you know you dont have to lie
just keep your mouth shut!
if you dont want it out.
to bring it up.
i feel like you think im stupid!
i know what really happened
just be real with me!
and if your scared that your going to "lose" me
well you should have thought about that before you opened your mouth!
at least if you tell me the truth then ill respect you
and maybe we can get our friendship back on track
but if you lied once
...what else could you have lied about
too bad not one person i know will tell the 100% truth like i'd like them to.
not even myself.
i guess by changing the world first i should start with changing myself.

dear world,
please just act like the person your talking about, good or bad, is watching you. who knows they very well could be. and who your talking about that person with may very well not be as reliable with your secrets as they allow you to believe. no one knows what happens behind closed doors.

just words... right?

how do you drive me crazy
but i have no effect on you?
i die to try and find you
but you're fine with running away?
why do you find everything wrong with me
but i can look past every flaw of yours?
i don't understand
but i sure want to!
will you please tell me
how to get through to you?
all i want is to be a tick in your head
like you are in mine
but i need a little help
on finding a way in there.
you make my heart crazy!
you say i do the same to yours
but how is it i don't see it?
i cant feel it?
i cant even fine it!
tell me what it is you want to hear
i cant make those words come out of my mouth
they might not be true
but since when was your love?

breath, step back, now RUN!

why is it that no matter what you do to me
i wont throw a punch back
but you have no problem with messing up my life!!!
i can find the love to let things go
but you cant seem to find the time to!
you know what
if this is how things are going to be
then im over it!
you can call this friendship off
say we're over
i dont care anymore
and the one final thing ill say to you is
i hope you hurt!

from the song you first sang to me
to the one that played when we kissed.
from the beat we stepped to when we first held hands
to the one your heart played while i fell asleep.
since music makes up our lives
what song is going to play next?
I've heard songs that make me cry
I've played tunes that make me smile
what beat will you be?
I like music videos that keep me at the end of my seat
but i don't want my life to be one.

hit.

why is it when it comes to you
ill say or do anything to stand up for you?
why do i get so mad when everyone thinks all guys are the same
but i know that your different?
i love you. and even though im trying not to right now
i cant help but defend you.
if only you could see the why i stick up for you
if only you knew the way i love you
and it breaks my heart to know
i stick up for you
but you cant say you do the same for me.

the close minded closed the book.

love is only a chapter in your life
but to me its the whole book.
the book mark keeps your place.
its always there when you get back.
but lifes not a book.
you cant save the page in a relationship.
i tried to turn the story in my direction
but your closed the book before we even got to that chapter
you thought the story was headed one way
but it was going another
just listen to the story
its yours but you cant make up all of it.
like life somethings are out of your hands
so you can try to book mark love
but the page will always get lost.

love was our weapon

that song played while the both of us had our first kiss.
that song played when when i needed a smile or a friend.
that song makes my day when i hear it.
put my ipod on random and ill skip every song till i get to ours.
that song plays in the car when I'm thinking of you.
or when I'm home thinking with you!
either way that song will play!
here i sit broken and that song is still as cheerful
as the night that we first held hands
so if I'm smiling why aren't you?

here.

to see you like that
it breaks my heart
i wish i could be there
like you've been from the start

to see you cry
to see you so low
i guess love's just a game
of easy come and easy go

im sorry you feel like this
and i know it hurts right now
if only i could let you know some how

your going to be fine
your going to be alright
with sisters like us to help through the fight
you'll come up strong
and better understanding
that life is long
and so overbearing

i care i do
i'll never completely understand
just tell me you need me
and there i will stand

Please don't walk away
I cant stand to be alone.
I need to hear you voice
and not only on the phone.

A sea between us
or it may as well be.
miles away
can you live without me?

Why do you go?
You always walk away.
Don't leave me alone.
I need you here to stay!

Your a part of my life,
my world, my best friend.
What happen to those words
"I'll be here till the end"?

Everyday I walk
your my tune and my song.
You're my words of encouragement.
You push me along.

You say I don't matter,
its only for you.
Since when am I not in your life?
Now what do I do?

Why are you everything to me
but I seem to mean nothing to you?
Since every thing's falling
I guess we're just through!

Now that we're over
I guess I'll move on.
Just know I'm still here sometime
I'm never all gone.

a mile long...

Is this love real because its right or be cause its right now?
Are you the guy of my dreams or just in my dreams?

in my past,
you are my present,
but do we have a future?

i know you make me laugh
and i know you make me smile
but this is a two way street
are we slowing down each mile?

how sad does your life have to be
when it seems like everything is going wrong.
every direction i look in, it seems like that angle of my space is fading.
i feel like with ever second i watch my life pass me by my friends decide that im not what's best for them.
When the only person you feel like you can trust doesn't trust you... well lets just say I'm doing something wrong but i don't know what.
am i crazy for wishing to have a life like a movie, to play the part of the star for once?
but people always tell me "maybe we weren't suppose to be the stars of this movie" so it seems like your just trying to keep the movie behind the sense.
can we just press play and move on. if we're not the stars then we don't have to keep acting like we are. We might not be the magic of your movie. but the one I'm watching... the one i dream about... the us i see, the you and me. they're the stars in front of this camera.

i see you...

we don't seem to see eye to eye yet we're face to face.
i live with my head in the clouds and your so down to earth.
we're so far apart but always together.
how is it that i hold my arms up and you live arms down but our hands can always find one another?
we come form different places but we speak the same language.
we have nothing in common but your just like me.
even when i cant see the fight i still know "love is our weapon".

Just had the best conversation EVER with kayla beth. Goodness i love that girl!

just one spark starts a fire!

with the small spark of love we shared
we started a fire
while you tried to put it out
i was left burned with desire.
the love i fear i don't know how to react
with a path leading in to a storm
ill try never to look back.
my reflection i see isn't so clear
my heart is still burning
how could you leave me my dear?

the time you...i felt a...

the time you looked me in the eyes i felt a connection.
the time you walk by my side i felt a friendship.
the time you kissed me i felt a long love.
the time you held my hand, but dropped it to shake a new one i felt alone.
the time you broke my heart i felt a tear.
but the time you said "i dont love you" i felt a cold knife run across my heart.

I found a stop and I'm living there

Leaving me won't get me out of your head. 
It will only fill the happieness you need with pain you don't.
If this is a love gone wrong just tell me don't make me feel like I did something I shouldn't have.
I love you...
Please love me  

My tummy needs someone to kiss it.
My feet need a nice rub.
My eyes need someone to look at.
My heart needs someone to love.

in my dreams...

you always say you wont love her.
but in your eyes she's so much better.
i can see the look in her eyes.
she needs you there right by her side.
she feels the pain, i feel it too
knowing your love doesn't want you you.
she says "... so i keep singing"
on your phone with her tone that keeps ringing.
you say you dont love her.
but i can clearly see
she the one your leaving not for yourself but for me...

past, present, future...life

i loved you for your past
there for i gave up my present
so we could have our future.
but i wasn't counting on your future to be without me.
so now I'm stuck in the present with no one.
with a heart braking past.
and I'm back to fearing my future.

ollie ollie oxen free!

my heart made me think i was in love.
my heart crys that you weren't in love with me.
my heart says "i still love you even if you broke me".
my heart makes my head do the wrong thing.
my heart also cant stand that i cant see you.
my heart thinks you've died.
my heart continues to cry.

now i see my head isn't in control.
it's all my heart
and it won't stop till it finds you.

please come out so
my tears can hide now!

don't even trust your own heart!

people say "love is all around you"
then why can't i see it?
people say "love is in your heart"
then why can't i feel it?
people say "love is the best feeling"
then why is it that ill i can understand is the pain love gives.
love hasn't ever done anything for me but kick me while i was down!
and if everyone knows the pain love gives
then why is everyone so anguishes to find it?
if you ask me its all a waist of time!

i hope this note cause you pain.
so when you do find your true love
and they give you all the love you could ever need
then when they take it all back with out time to heal
you will already have a taste of the pain that comes along with it.

I was wrong

Is it wrong that I love him so much? 
I hear the song that touches my heart and I loss all feeling just knowing that I can't have him. Why are you oh so untouchable?
Do you love me like you say?
Or is she right?
What if I do just end up like all the other girls. Does that mean love isn't real?
That's what she's leading me to believe.
I'm such a fool for thinking I could love you.
The love I feel for you is so untitled.
Wrong, right? 
... Just for now I can't live with out you.
 

Make it yourself

keep your memories, lock them up
But what happens when the box you keep them in burns up?
With no memories down on paper will the memorie of love still be there? 
Who's there to remember 
who's there to forget?
Who's with you when it happened 
Who will regret?
No matter what please don't send me out to the sea. No matter what is forgoten Please don't forget me.

With the memories gone and the love we had fail I guess it's time I say good bye 
 

Now what do I say?

You went away
And when you came back I couldn't wait to say
This week I was lost
But I see I've been found
Your mine again
I won't let you down

You told me you would catch me if I fell
But now I see u just wanted to drop me yourself 

You took my pride and sent me on my way
I want to see you just so I can say
This time I was lost
I see I've been found
You'll never be mine
You always let me down

So when did hell freeze?

You said you would walk through hell for me 
I'm there but where are you?
You didn't tell me that you would give my life for your own.
I don't expect anything from you.
I'm just sorry I ever thought you loved me. 
You say you still do but tell that to my burned heart and my fake smile. I guess you won't cause you lied

You said you were my best friend but if you really were
You would be with me right now trying to help me through this. I guess you won't cause you lied

What happened to the time you looked in my eyes?
What happened to the memories in that past life?
The time you swore you wouldn't be the guy you seem to be now. 
I'm sorry I love you, 
I'm sorry god put me infrount of your eyes
And I'm also sorry he took me away cause when reopen your eyes I won't be infrount of them 

Your just the same

Your not loveyour not trust you just pain.
When I saw my father in the corner of his broken dreams
I knew love wasn't real. When my mother left him for the world I knew everything was fake. When I heard glass brake and doors slam I knew I wouldn't ever love someone who would do that to me. Turns out everyone does it. People are all the same

Broken dreams

I trusted you with my heart, my soul, and my friendship
Now all I'm left with are theis burned hands to match my burned soul
My slit wrists to go with my slit heart
And the lost of all my trust that equals to my lost friendship
Hope you like what you've made me
Hope you see what's left of my dreams

stay happy

why is it my heart hurts so much?
because he broke it.
why is it i wish he wanted me?
because i love him.
why is it even when i cry, i smile?
because i know he's happy.

a living hell!

what are we doing with our world! God gives us an amazing place so we can have our own heaven here and what do we do with it?!?!?! we make it a hell! i sick of people thinking they know whats right but really they dont know what others feel!!!! why cant everyone just learn to LOVE!

what are we doing with our world! God gives us an amazing place so we can have our own heaven here and what do we do with it?!?!?! we make it a hell! i sick of people thinking they know whats right but really they dont know what others feel!!!! why cant everyone just learn to LOVE!

just live!

Im sorry we're not like you!
im sorry your too "perfect" for our family!
everyone sins and everyone makes mistakes
but its not your job to pick ours all out!
thats my brother your talking about
and thats my life your trying to snip away!
everyone just wants to find love in the world.
your not the best at it either!
no one can help the way they are!
and no one tries to help them understand.
but you dont need to make them feel worse about them self!

you might be speaking God's word but your the devil saying it!
your saying its wrong your saying they're a mistake but its you!
you might have the world on your side but you've lost the love of the ones who truly cared about you.

so go... go act like the others but your going to miss all the love in the world. and no one is going to come try to find you in all your evil!

change

if i could change myself i would
you tell me you hate my jealousy, i do too so i changed.
you let me know how you feel about me wearing makeup
and i stopped.
i would change my whole world if it kept you with me
my life.
my laugh.
me love.
but the one thing i wouldn't ever change even if you asked...
my first kiss

fake face

i look at the pictures from my past
i can see the fake smiles on everyones faces
how people know their image is about to be caught for ever, they have to try and look the way everyone wants them to. why not just be yourself?
why not let others see you as you feel on the inside.
if you feel happy show it!
if you aren't then don't wear that fake face!

i really do love you

you might have been mine for three months
you might have known me for a year
but you were made for me 16 years ago

you say she's so beautiful and i can see why
you say she's the only girl for you
i feel the tears run down as i start to cry
i wish you could tell that thats not true
i want to tell you the way i feel but it wont help
our friendship will only get smaller and smaller if i let the truth out
you tell me yall's past
you let me know what's going to come
but i wish you could know she's not the right one
there are so many more just like her
but in your eyes she's the only one that is truly here for you
you think you can see the world for what it is
but really your just a guy living inside his own head
i feel the love you feel towards her
i feel the pain knowing that person wont love you
but really your just looking in the wrong direction
love isn't time, love isn't knowing,
love is a friendship that continues it's growing
I can feel what you feel not because we are so close
i can feel the pain in your words because what she does to you, you do to me
i want to tell you the songs i keep on repeat in my heart
i would love to yall the poems i hold in my mind
but all you will do to them is run

TIME PASSES BY

that girl you once loved
that girl you saw before
she's not here for you
she's not waiting at your door
but the friend you once noticed
the one who always loved you
she's there...
and you look in her eyes
you see all her pain
and now you feel the love for her
you once thought was insane
she loves you and you know it
and now she knows she can let it out
you and your love yall are always together
"me and you, you and me" you say
ill hold you forever
and yes your feelings might be true
but the thought that will never leave my head
"were is the love you had for her the other girl you might still want?"
because she leaves you
you think you move on?
what if she comes back
what then
those words you always said "forever and always"
it was a lie it was all in my head
my love for you is as true as can be
but i guess love is only a one way street

what am i saying?
i know how you feel
i can read your heart like a book
and this love is real

if i can see that you would rather be his boyfriend and HE can see it too!!!! but you cant! than i think you are doing something wrong!
i love you and ill never stop loving you but if you would rather not love me then just tell me but please don't lie to me!

I feel like a signal flower in a field of clovers. And when i look down and start to wilt i find a four leaf clover that always rises me back up. but then when i'm sitting on a nice spring day someone comes by and picks me out of no where, i've now lost the only four leaf clover i've ever found and i'm starting to wilt.
with no roots to keep me close to you, and no sunlight to brighten my day, im left alone with the sound of a voice saying "he loves me, he loves me not" and as my peddles begin to fall and the question still remans in my head. Does he love me?

love is our weapon

i've had so many dreams about you and me.
they finely came true! now we are together. and you were the one i had my first kiss with. i always knew that you were going to be my prince. every time you take my hand i giggle, every time you lean in to kiss my i hold my breath, and every time you talk to me i get butterflies. i just hope this lasts longer then what you make it seem.

is this love?

why is it that when i look in to your eyes i get a feeling inside my tummy? what is that feeling? And why is it that when your hand touches mine, my fingers lose their feeling? well i hope i get this feeling again but not when im with someone thats not you. ^_^ well i love you and i always will

my nightmares always come true but my dreams never do...?

Ouch, i hate when you make my heart hurt.

i think you just tell me things to upset me. And make me jealous. well it works :/

i wait for you and try my hardest to get you for the past 10 months. And you make me think i win you hold my hand. you look into my eyes for the longest time and then you tell me "you really like" me. i let you know, with out saying i like you too, that i do. then you take it away from me. SO what did you do then?!?! you kicked me while i was down! i never said ANYTHING. all i did was sit there and you started all this drama. well what ever im sure ill come out on top. ill just have to keep up with my nightmares.

oh spring love... is it fake?

you make me so happy, and you make me so sad. But when you told me you liked me i felt like flying. now i feel the pain of you taking that love away. i guess ill just have to wait but i hope you think of a life with and with out me... now see which one is better. Im sorry i just love your friendship too much to let it go. please dont ever let me go.

lier!

i hate that people say "your just one person but you can change the world" but i don't want to change something that big right away. Ill try something smaller. But when i step up to the plate you tell me that i'm just one person i cant change something like this. Oh but i can change the world humm... am i the only person that sees something wrong with this? I sure hope not!

Its a beautiful spring day. I'm sitting outside thinking of you, my best guy friend, wondering what kind of girl you will end up with. Who is right for you and what your looking for in a girl.

I'm sitting in my front yard and i see a beautiful girl running past me. Everything is so graceful about her. As her stunning red ribbon falls from her hair I instantly think to myself "She is the one. The one that you would end up with." I can hear her music pounding on full blast, and I sing to myself... "Thats your favorite song!"

She is wearing you favorite color. I know if you were to have ever met her you would fall instantly in love with her.

Then with one blink of my eyes i know who this girl is. You've known her all along, this one perfect girl for you has been right in front of you all this time... and she's me.

I was the one with the majestic red ribbon, I was the one listening to your song, and I was the one in love with you all this time.

Space. its another world just waiting for someone to take it on. sometimes i just want to die just so i can ask God how many stars there really are. Are other living organisms out there, waiting to be found? Is there a star 10x bigger than the sun? What could lie out there? i guess i can only wonder...

i tell you i like you, and i do but mostly for the reason that your you, and you never date anyone so i would know that you were real if you liked me too. but then we talk and we talk and you inch by inch let me know that you are in love with i don't even know who. I can tell you want me off your back but just to let you know that i might have said what ever it is i said but your the one that has to make it seem like its a big thing, and its NOT. well we are on the phone and you just wont shut up! so i have to let you know that i could care less about what ever it is you are talking about. So good job now i just find you annoying and not pleasant to be around! so thanks, thanks for crushing my dreams and taking my heart on a long journey with no return.

i thought you were the guy of my dreams but your just a shadow in my nightmare. I don't want you to be around me, i don't want to look in to the eyes i once fell in love with. Your not the guy i want standing with me on a white lace aisle. Your the guy i want to wonder about what we could have been if you let it be there. Im leaving this horse town and all my so called friends in it. ill be on my own. to see the world outside of this box. you say you want the same but i don't think you could make it anywhere.

To find a guy like you all i have to do is look right down the road. But for you to find a girl as real as me, you would have to circle the globe and you still might not have a chance. So i hope your happy someday with that girl you say your in love with cause i'm not waiting forever. I was there but like the sand on a cool beach summer day, the ocean will soon take me where i'm called. To the real love of my life or it might take me down a road where nothing lies ahead, for me to stand there with no hand to hold but my own.

And you think "love is love" but your wrong love is a friendship and a friendship is love, but i can see that you'll never find that out. and thats really sad.

you trusted me, you told me something that i couldn't ever repeat. now every time i think of it i CRY! i've never cried over or for a boy. but why are you different!?!?! why is it that if i see a picture of something that resembles that moment i lose all conciseness. RIGHT NOW my heart is racing and i cant feel any party of me!!!!!! IM NOT KIDDING!!!! i cant feel my body all i can feel is the heat falling from my skin!

yesterday at school i passed out because i thought of what you told me! i touched my forehead and i felt the tingle run down my body. Straight from my head to my arms fallowing to my legs.

i love when its raining and my glasses have the tears of the clouds resting on them. How i see everything, its like im in my own world. i can see things others cant. when i look into the glittering lights its almost like the blear and magnificent running colors blend to make the most beautiful combination ive ever seen. I could stair straight into them for all of eternity. But when i wipe the running water from my face and i dry my glasses, what i have to wake up to just makes me feel like running back out into the rain once more.

i love when you find that one song that you cant help but to think "this song was so made for me!" i can relate to alot of songs but never one like this!

could it really be that bad?

every night i wait for it to be about 8:30 for me to take my shower. but when i'm upset and i just cant wait for my time alone and my time to think i take a shower earlier (6:30) i love to take a shower when i'm upset like so upset that i just need the running water to hide my tears. but not one time, never once have i ever felt so alone, so upset, so heart broken that i didn't take a shower all i needed was a long bath. i know that just sounds silly. but its how i feel. i sat in my bath with no cold water running at all, nothing but hot hot hot. and as i sat there listening to Taylor Swift, i thought of what had happened today. and how i couldn't ever tell anyone because they might think i over reacted but in my mind i didn't! i think that life will still go on but not much will stay the same. anyways... i don't really know what you could ever do with this information but hold on to it and think to yourself when you feel this way. "even if others think i'm over reacting maybe they just don't know what it feels like inside and maybe they'll never have to, but then again there is not love with out hate."

love cant be written

all day i think of words to say about you, to put how i feel about you in words, but when i sit down to type it all out every word in my head, very rime, and very song excepts my mind. So i guess when it gets right down to it all i can really say is "I love you"

(sigh)

The worst feeling ever is not knowing if you should wait or give up...

what is love?

i don't see how movies make the perfect guy, i've found that only about 1 out of 1,000,000,000,000 girls get the most amazing boy and the other 999,999,999,999 girls get to think they fall in love with him but they just have to get second best. i've found that one super guy, the guy that tells you how amazing, funny, pretty, and perfect you are but i guess i'm just one of the 999,999,999,999 girls thats just not worth his time. but i can also see why.