Its a beautiful spring day. I'm sitting outside thinking of you, my best guy friend, wondering what kind of girl you will end up with. Who is right for you and what your looking for in a girl.

I'm sitting in my front yard and i see a beautiful girl running past me. Everything is so graceful about her. As her stunning red ribbon falls from her hair I instantly think to myself "She is the one. The one that you would end up with." I can hear her music pounding on full blast, and I sing to myself... "Thats your favorite song!"

She is wearing you favorite color. I know if you were to have ever met her you would fall instantly in love with her.

Then with one blink of my eyes i know who this girl is. You've known her all along, this one perfect girl for you has been right in front of you all this time... and she's me.

I was the one with the majestic red ribbon, I was the one listening to your song, and I was the one in love with you all this time.

Space. its another world just waiting for someone to take it on. sometimes i just want to die just so i can ask God how many stars there really are. Are other living organisms out there, waiting to be found? Is there a star 10x bigger than the sun? What could lie out there? i guess i can only wonder...

i tell you i like you, and i do but mostly for the reason that your you, and you never date anyone so i would know that you were real if you liked me too. but then we talk and we talk and you inch by inch let me know that you are in love with i don't even know who. I can tell you want me off your back but just to let you know that i might have said what ever it is i said but your the one that has to make it seem like its a big thing, and its NOT. well we are on the phone and you just wont shut up! so i have to let you know that i could care less about what ever it is you are talking about. So good job now i just find you annoying and not pleasant to be around! so thanks, thanks for crushing my dreams and taking my heart on a long journey with no return.

i thought you were the guy of my dreams but your just a shadow in my nightmare. I don't want you to be around me, i don't want to look in to the eyes i once fell in love with. Your not the guy i want standing with me on a white lace aisle. Your the guy i want to wonder about what we could have been if you let it be there. Im leaving this horse town and all my so called friends in it. ill be on my own. to see the world outside of this box. you say you want the same but i don't think you could make it anywhere.

To find a guy like you all i have to do is look right down the road. But for you to find a girl as real as me, you would have to circle the globe and you still might not have a chance. So i hope your happy someday with that girl you say your in love with cause i'm not waiting forever. I was there but like the sand on a cool beach summer day, the ocean will soon take me where i'm called. To the real love of my life or it might take me down a road where nothing lies ahead, for me to stand there with no hand to hold but my own.

And you think "love is love" but your wrong love is a friendship and a friendship is love, but i can see that you'll never find that out. and thats really sad.

you trusted me, you told me something that i couldn't ever repeat. now every time i think of it i CRY! i've never cried over or for a boy. but why are you different!?!?! why is it that if i see a picture of something that resembles that moment i lose all conciseness. RIGHT NOW my heart is racing and i cant feel any party of me!!!!!! IM NOT KIDDING!!!! i cant feel my body all i can feel is the heat falling from my skin!

yesterday at school i passed out because i thought of what you told me! i touched my forehead and i felt the tingle run down my body. Straight from my head to my arms fallowing to my legs.

i love when its raining and my glasses have the tears of the clouds resting on them. How i see everything, its like im in my own world. i can see things others cant. when i look into the glittering lights its almost like the blear and magnificent running colors blend to make the most beautiful combination ive ever seen. I could stair straight into them for all of eternity. But when i wipe the running water from my face and i dry my glasses, what i have to wake up to just makes me feel like running back out into the rain once more.

i love when you find that one song that you cant help but to think "this song was so made for me!" i can relate to alot of songs but never one like this!

could it really be that bad?

every night i wait for it to be about 8:30 for me to take my shower. but when i'm upset and i just cant wait for my time alone and my time to think i take a shower earlier (6:30) i love to take a shower when i'm upset like so upset that i just need the running water to hide my tears. but not one time, never once have i ever felt so alone, so upset, so heart broken that i didn't take a shower all i needed was a long bath. i know that just sounds silly. but its how i feel. i sat in my bath with no cold water running at all, nothing but hot hot hot. and as i sat there listening to Taylor Swift, i thought of what had happened today. and how i couldn't ever tell anyone because they might think i over reacted but in my mind i didn't! i think that life will still go on but not much will stay the same. anyways... i don't really know what you could ever do with this information but hold on to it and think to yourself when you feel this way. "even if others think i'm over reacting maybe they just don't know what it feels like inside and maybe they'll never have to, but then again there is not love with out hate."

love cant be written

all day i think of words to say about you, to put how i feel about you in words, but when i sit down to type it all out every word in my head, very rime, and very song excepts my mind. So i guess when it gets right down to it all i can really say is "I love you"

(sigh)

The worst feeling ever is not knowing if you should wait or give up...

what is love?

i don't see how movies make the perfect guy, i've found that only about 1 out of 1,000,000,000,000 girls get the most amazing boy and the other 999,999,999,999 girls get to think they fall in love with him but they just have to get second best. i've found that one super guy, the guy that tells you how amazing, funny, pretty, and perfect you are but i guess i'm just one of the 999,999,999,999 girls thats just not worth his time. but i can also see why.