could it really be that bad?

every night i wait for it to be about 8:30 for me to take my shower. but when i'm upset and i just cant wait for my time alone and my time to think i take a shower earlier (6:30) i love to take a shower when i'm upset like so upset that i just need the running water to hide my tears. but not one time, never once have i ever felt so alone, so upset, so heart broken that i didn't take a shower all i needed was a long bath. i know that just sounds silly. but its how i feel. i sat in my bath with no cold water running at all, nothing but hot hot hot. and as i sat there listening to Taylor Swift, i thought of what had happened today. and how i couldn't ever tell anyone because they might think i over reacted but in my mind i didn't! i think that life will still go on but not much will stay the same. anyways... i don't really know what you could ever do with this information but hold on to it and think to yourself when you feel this way. "even if others think i'm over reacting maybe they just don't know what it feels like inside and maybe they'll never have to, but then again there is not love with out hate."