why is it so cool to not care?

girl: "if you dont like me then i dont care."
and what shes really thinking "i hope you notice me now"
girl: "i dress the way i want!"
and what shes really thinking "i hope you notices me now"
girl: i dont have to try
and what shes really thinking "i try to make you notice me"

i hate myself!

i wish we could go back to the days where chasing was just a game and not a sport.
when dancing was for fun and loving someone was never a scary thought.
when kisses were as bad as a STD and holding on to your friends was never hard to do.
fights never broke out and neither did hearts.
why cant we just all sit on the play ground and tell stories about what we were going to do once we were all president.
whenever you never worried about someone cheating or being jealous.
why is it that once we grow up everyone is out to steal your cookies.
no one is aloud to see you cry anymore
and momma just doesn't want to hear "it"
if growing up is the difference between being a princess for halloween or a slutty cop then don't even bother packing up my stuffed animals.

my immortal

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase


I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

all i want to do is trade this life for something new

you make me sick!
you walk around saying you know what love is all about
but no!
step back
you broke her heart
look down
you dont deserve her!
the only reason she cant move on is because
the hardest part of ending is starting again.

bigger then us

i got my wish
but when i look in your eyes i cant help but think time only lasts as long as a feeling.
this feel is forever. i guess i finally found my way in to your head.
love is more then time, more then a song, bigger then me and bigger then us
but all we can do is remember what "love" stands for.
you make me feel like im flying. with you i can kiss the sky
im forever in your arms. you make sparks fly.

a hop, skip, and a leap

today I looked back into the eyes that pushed me off my feet
only to find them picking me back up.
i want to love you with all my heart but I'm too scared.
what if i fall again?
I hadn't thought about that nightmare for a while now but I cant get the shivering fear out of my head. I'm almost too scared to close my eyes and walk with you leading me
but I trust you. forgive and forget. here goes everything. a hop skip and a leap.
my head thinks long term my heart acts now!
please let time have them work together.